Future Plans

I haven’t posted anything for a while now, as I’m sure many of you have noticed. I promise that I’ve been working on some essays, it’s just that some are more relevant to my school than the internet. I’m not sure some of the events mentioned would be sufficiently backed with your previous experiences, but I will post them regardless.

Essays I have planned:

  • A complaint about a school-mandated day for imposing understanding upon us as students
  • A reflection on my life as a daughter with an even younger brother
  • A rant about how materialistic our society is

Poems I have planned:

  • An interesting take on the autumn
  • A love story inspired by the 4th of July
  • Two Pindaric Odes

I hope that some of these might interest you! Thanks for sticking around!

There is No Home

The land hid under the bodies of many. Wooden houses lay scavenged and empty. Red splatters tainted everything, and corpses scattered above them. The sun was suspended in the air, lining everything with a powder of death. Swords and arrows were as frequent as trees in a forest. This was the town of Lemdal after the Dozen Year War.

The houses were low, almost conquered by the sand dunes. They had no roofs or walls, only ghostly blueprints to a life long lost. Charred weapons and stout torches were scattered as remnants of a battle. The air was filled with dark stony ashes and choking smoke. Persistent fires emitted the only fleeting light within the ash. This was the town of Churs after the Dozen Year War.

Her sword glistened brightly in comparison to the dull town around her. It was still patched with blood from the war it killed in. The bodies she saw all held some sentiment to her, and she does not even try. Tears streamed down her face as she stood aside of her town, motionless. She was Eeva, and her powerful home Lemdal was destroyed.

His armor remained invincible, but his sword was splintered into trembling sadness. He leaned against a pillar in disbelief and agony. Stroking its rugged edges, it was the only spared monument around. He desperately tried to search for his house, only to find it blown away. The cracked borders of his parent’s room remained as a gravestone of their existence. He allowed constant tears to flow from his eyes. He was Vual, and his hometown, Churs, was decimated.

Eeva didn’t act for hours. She was lost, recalling memories in the empty town. She grew, she played, and she loved between the streets of dirt. She could still see her unappreciative self and her family, laughing. Their bodies lay on the floor now, still as settled snow. She wondered how they died, and if she could have killed the cause.

Vual scrambled to replace the rubble. He found a few charred corpses stacked in a pile and rampaged through the bodies for his family. He spent long nights giving everyone a proper funeral. He cried, a child once again. With large rocks from the river, he gave each infinite respects on a tombstone.

Eeva had joined the army when the war first started. Both sides had always wished for a compromise, but the denied kidnapping of dozens of Lemdal oxen forced the chief to declare war. There was still turmoil about the legend that was acknowledged and dusted long ago. The Churs were living on the expanses of desert when the Lemdal came. The land was given to the Lemdal people divinely, but the Churs acted in violence. After much unwanted sacrifice, half of the land became Lemdal, and the remainder stayed Churs. Forests formed walls where the Lemdal lived, and the Churs grew more hate for them in their remaining land.

Vual was one of the last to become active in the conflict. He evaded the army for the longest time, but was forced to join in the final year. Despite his unwillingness, he hated the Lemdal with all of his existence. Vual vividly remembered the first time he was told the old myth. He believed it with his sacred heart and pleaded to hear it retold many times. He hated everything that was Lemdal with a lupin anger. Even in his immature years, he understood how valuable land was. He wanted to live on the land that was once Churs.

Eeva was devastated. She knew that the Churs have succeeded. They were going to come and claim the Lemdal territory for their own. She was the lone survivor and she would kill everyone she could. For the Lemdal culture, Eeva perseveres.

Vual saw his misery as a victory for the Lemdal people. When they claimed the land as their own, he will attempt to kill them all. He knew the day would come, so he spent all of his energy preparing to fight them. Every night, he curled next to his pillar of support, sobbing and tiring himself to sleep. He worked to distract himself with revenge.

Eeva waited for them to attack. She sharpened her sword mindlessly, thinning the edge to slice the chest pieces of her enemies. She scavenged the land for food and weapons. Her wounds did not bother her – they could bleed out for all she cared. All she wanted was revenge for the killing of her family and her love. She repeated the lore in her head, but every time she thought of it, new details erupted. She was falling into the depths of madness.

Vual forged armor with what he could find, nursing to his wounds with a maternal care. He made a bow from the strong wood he could gather. He pulled fibers off of a tree branch, and braided them into a bowstring, delicately and precisely. He recalled the woodworker of the town, fastening bows with lightning, and slowly salted the wood with memories of the big man. His slender, sturdy arms would sooth Vual when his parents did not. He barred his teeth at the thought of him dead, expelling the cakey feeling from his face. He would have vengeance for him.

Eeva tenderly touched her scars, stroking them as if to feel the blade slicing through them before. They swelled up now, the red valleys turning into burgundy hills. She had never been one for healing – that was her neighbor’s specialty. Whenever she would have hurt herself, he would always tend to the wounds with a smile. That was why she loved him so much. Tears fell onto the wounds as she wrapped them with a cloth. For him, she will kill the murderers.

Vual moved to watch his face in the rippling water after a grueling day of crying. His hair had writhed into a bird’s nest of revenge. A beard breathed at his skin, quietly encouraging him. His eyes glittered with impatience and his lips were still red with cuts and scarred with dryness. Overpowering and beautiful were his armor pieces, flashing brightly with the sun. Vual was a shield that no one could break through. He tried to butcher himself with a tear. The ripple dashed across the pond, shattering.

Eeva awoke one morning to laughter that sounded like her brother’s. The melancholy bursts of happiness seemed like a dream. She touched her eyes tenderly but felt no tears. A desire to see her face and what she had become, still and unfeeling, overwhelmed her. A shard of mirror lay in her view and attracted her attention. Her eyes were blood tainted, hungry for revenge to fill the void. She was skinnier but fiercer than before. She wore clothing that accented her pale blonde hair. The mirror slipped from her grasp and brought itself down, distorting.

Eeva’s face fell. She gave up. The sky crumpled. Resemblance was devastating.

Vual’s legs collapsed. He cried sorrowful. The ground caved. Memories were lethal.

She wanted no revenge. She needed to leave forever.

He didn’t want retribution. He needed to disappear.

She betrayed all. She tore at her protection, resting a dagger on her neck. Pressing slightly, she tasted pain and remembered. Her family had been secretly suicidal for generations, and Eeva regretted not being able to help anyone. When her brother killed himself, Eeva set herself to be in a position of anti-self harm. Her perspective of war resembled suicide, but she would die honorably. A noble death would pride her and allow her to pass with no regrets. The sword was lowered and sheathed.

He abandoned everything. Uncovered became his sword and to his chest it went. Rays of heated pain leaped from the puncture. The feeling unsettled him, flooding him with delicate emotions from his past. The war and the fear of bloodshed consumed him again. Vual dropped the knife in fear and shock. It seemed wrong for all the perfect reasons.

Driven by dead promises, Eeva had to live. Loosely wrapping cloth around her neck, she quickly sharpened her loyal sword and silenced it. The rest of her possessions were assembled on the ground, quietly dusting away. Her sword moved tirelessly at her side. With a light step, Eeva set off.

Pushed by the fears of the past, Vual must go on. He carried only a small dagger, just enough to propel his needs. With armor fully equipped, he left his sword on the doorstep, neatly abandoned. The sky seemed so dead when he left.

The forest was the fence, repelling the Churs. Their destructive arrogance had brought most of the trees down. The Lemdal people had always valued nature. They cared for the arbors, only selecting the dying ones for torches. The woodland had always been sacred to Eeva. Her height now exceeded even the tallest trees. Step after step, she ran away from her home, the tears streaming reluctantly from her eyes once again.

Churs was a desert town that survived in the high heat and harsh sand. The village was split by a stream that started in the mountains. The peaks were impossibly tall, so that you would have died before you reached the top. Vual used fabrics to cover his face and dry his eyes. The desert held nostalgia in him, and now raging fires swelled in every corner of the dunes. The Lemdal must pay for their actions, but he knew their satisfaction would surpass that.

The forest ended at the plains, where the desert eventually buried tall grasses. Small wall-less huts provided Eeva cover from the coming sun. Lemdal never received too much heat. The Churs must have been savage to live in such conditions. The shade in the hot temperatures lured Eeva to a standing sleep, waiting for the army to attack.

The desert ended at the plains, where rough sand morphed into refined forests. Chiseled sand structures had once provided rest, and they would do so one last time. The warm interior pleased Vual and the sunlight sang to him. This heat was the essence of life, and the Lemdal must have been dead to not enjoy it. The light breezes persuaded his eyes to close, dreaming until his land was sought.

The urge to join her people overwhelmed Eeva. The smile of the shade would be her last comfort as she ventured out to face certain death.

The memories of happiness prodded Vual back to the conflict at the present. He left everything as he entered the plains between the different lands. Death shall be his today.

A figure in the distance brought Eeva a strange sort of hope.

A figure in the distance granted Vual a unique kind of eagerness.

From its scent, she could tell it was a Churs person.

From its gait, he could infer that it was a Lemdal person.

As they approached one another, Eeva could see his face. Worn hair poured over dark, tanned skin. He seemed like an average Churs dweller. Her face curled into an artificial sneer.

As they continued walking, Vual could see her features. Pale hair cascaded over equally fair skin. She seemed like a normal Lemdal warrior. His attitude overcame with false anger.

“Churs scum!”

“Lemdal rat!”

A breeze blew and daggers emerged like fallen leaves. Rushing towards one another, the blades reversed.

A puncture to the stomach. A stab to the heart.

“For Lemdal, the village of the forest!”

“For Churs, the town of the desert!”

A final breath. Still four feet from each other. Eternal loyalty to home.

Sorry for the lack of updates! I’ve been pretty busy with school and things, but I did manage to finish this for a writing contest. You can check it out here, but I doubt that you’ll have time to submit anything. Also, its for grades 7-12, so…

Hope you enjoy!

Two Natures

The ground screams sadness
with its tear-dampened trees
and the dew on unsaturated leaves.
It echoes melancholy
with its limitless fog
and its shadowed bark.

The sky whispers hope
for those forgotten in the clouds.
For the those that sob within
and those that cry without.
For the ones that need it most
and for the ones that don’t at all.

Sorry for the lack of content!

Persephone’s Parting

Why do I revel in the autumn?
Because of the rosy leaves
the rustling falls
the gruesome acorns and their murders.
Because of the withering life
the falling skin
the preparation for the face of death.
I bask in the torture
because the dying leaves
are tragedies within themselves,
and the tragic stories
are the fortunate ones.

hey, it’s another poem. Sorry about that. High school is much more work than I anticipated. Also, tumblr.

Apocalypse

The boisterous turn quiet
the violent turn tame
the arrogant turn humble
nothing is the same.

Vegas forges darkness
New York is silent
Chicago simmers abandonment
all is eternally bent.

The cities are leveled clean
the barren deserts filled
all creatures are ravenous
or else they are killed.

I’m going to do an essay soon, I promise.

Mixed Feelings

It seemed good
but was it really bad?
Once I was in the mood
and now I’m quite sad.
Just trundling seemed the plan
but it ended as my home.
Unable to find a proper clan
to call my very own.
But the last is just the start
of a greater, happier life
where following my heart
is possible without strife.
All seems useless and boring
until I can be free
but I’ll remember in the morning
that’s exactly where I’ll be.

Dreadfully sorry for the inactivity, but here’s an old poem of mine.

Impermanence

When the skies are blue and the clouds are white
I think everything is quite all right.
But in a home, warm and smart,
Someone cuts their wrists and scars their heart.
My joy can only be thought as this,
and everything is confusingly impermanent.

On cloudy days and rainy nights,
all of my happiness is out of sight.
But is a place, quiet and small,
Someone can with joyous call.
My sadness can only be thought as this,
and everything is beautifully impermanent.

Youth’s Value

Being old is becoming increasingly underrated. How young you are does not determine how experienced you are, as there could be an elderly person that has faced little to no hardship in their life while there is a child that has undergone wars and family problems. That doesn’t necessarily mean that they are wiser and more experienced, but they do know things that the elder doesn’t know. The elderly can sometimes be stubborn because of their seeming conception on life, but with the changing times, no knowledge is permanent. On the flip side, children are considered inexperienced and are not called upon for help, as their small body and little strength would not fare well in dangerous situations, but there are definitely time when a child can help. For example, an innocent problem that needs some silly resolutions would need the help of a child. Imagination and creativity blossom in the young years, but why is that considered silly? It’s not as if the most successful people think out of the box. Being old and being young are two opposites that both need some more respect. 

Countless of people consider their most beautiful time during their early 20s, as their skin is much nicer than it will progressively get. Youth drools out of people around that age, but why is it valued? Why do we feel the need to look younger and vibrant? Why aren’t wrinkled considered beautiful? It is most likely because of the problems that are associated with age that make this so. Age means creaking bones and lack of energy, but a more active mind and more potential energy. Though retirees have the easy life, it is still riddled with problems like aching bones and demolishing health. Everyone has problems that deal with age, but the ones elders face seem much harder and are less favorable than having emotional issues or family problems.

Children strive to grow older and more mature faster because it seems like there is a lot of freedom that is associated with age, but in reality, responsibility arrives and freedom seems like nothing. When you are responsible, rather than an outside source telling you what to do, you have an inward desire to please, qualify, or even survive. You are free from restraints that tell you to do something at a certain time, but you are not free when you are required to do something by yourself. Looking forward to this time is something many children do, but it would be better if they just enjoyed their childhood rather than look to the future.

The teenage years are often described as “the best years of my life”. This is most likely because there are not that many things required out of you, besides school, and you can still get away with a lot of things. Parents can clean and finance for you, and you are able to live life as an adolescent with more freedom. With these great things, some downfalls must come. Teens are just transitioning to the adult life and are starting to bear the weight of being held accountable for their own actions. With their own set of thoughts, you can no longer be considered cute when a mistake is made. Being liberated also means that when some serious things have to be done, it is not always done. Also known as the rebellious stage, teenagers often confront their parents as restricting, which is not true. All parents wish for their children to be happy but stay within their limits, which means some rules for these years. 

An adult is in the middle stage, no longer able to pass as a child or get senior discounts at museums. It is often the time of the most responsibility, with kids that need to be taken care of or parents that need to be pleased. Finances, social lives, and children worry these people the most, and they want to either be a child with no responsibilities or an elder with even less worries.

Each age has its turmoil, but really we should be grateful as each one passes us. The perks and downfalls of each age are not always apparent to us, but looking back, they are. Every year teaches us with new lessons, and every age provides new experiences, and regretting won’t help at all. Living for the future is much more pleasant than regretting the past. On that note, I remembered a little passage from who knows where, and it goes like this, “To have fun, you need three things. Energy, money, and time. When we are children, we have the energy and time, but we do not have the money. When we are adults, we have the money and the energy, but we do not have the time. When we are old, we have the money and the time, but we do not have the energy.” 

But I’m Innocent!

Can one no longer stay a jewel
a beautiful, glowing bead?
Is there some torrented mischief
in every single seed?

Can we no longer not know things,
and still get on just fine?
Do we need to be perverted
every single time?

Is a child no longer precious,
divine, just or nice?
Are we all supposed to know
every grain of rice?

Can we be pure and gold
with every word we say?
Is innocence even possible
especially today?